It's a damn cold night...

Forgiving is love's toughest work, and love's biggest risk. To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you.
いつか失ってしまうのかな。薄れてゆく笑顔と君を守りたい。
-- D-technolife

If fate is a wheel, then we are the sand that is crushed between the cogs.

Don't judge a life by one difficult season.

独自并不代表孤单,在一群人中狂笑着有时更寂寞。
-- 吴庆康

At times it may not even seem rational, but the heart has a computing ability that is far more accurate and far more precise than anything within the limits of rational thought.
-- Deepak Chopra
于是我让孤独更孤独,有一种不是悲伤的悲伤,才是刻骨铭心的悲伤。
Grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love.
-- St Francis.
People's actions are influenced by their expectations. People respond not just to what is happening now, but to what they anticipate will happen in the future.
-- Sloman
不管你会不会忘了我,我只想告诉你一个秘密。
--《不能说的·秘密》

Every action generates a force of energy that returns to us in like kind.
-- Deepak Chopra

The furthest distance in the world is not between life and death but when I stand in front of you yet you don't know that I love you.
-- Tagore
Do do not worry about tomorrow; it will have enough worries of its own. There is no need to add to the troubles each day brings.
-- Matt 6:34

まだ不器用に笑うね まだ悲しみが似合うから
キミに降る痛みを 拭ってあげたい すべて I for you
-- I For You

the optimistic pessimist

supposedly an adult, she thinks like an adult (too much, if you ask me). deep inside, she is nothing but a little girl, with her little lofty dreams and ideals. and oops, she is breaking them, one by one.
more often than not, she is just an angsty emo kid.

she is only but
a passer-by,

an onlooker,
a walking shadow.

and this girl can't stop writing.

she stalks

|| cyn bea bao zou mel ||
|| joan weepz ||
|| blockc yeanching lehia kexi zhenlin horace alvin dina sandra becca tzehee ||
|| cruzteng peifen dasmondkoh ||
|| xiaozhu xiaogui sunxiezhi ashin kangyong ||
|| derrick jinglun stefsun natho lawrencewong ||
|| feliciachin joannepeh jeanetteaw sharonaw ||
|| xiaohan hyr chimkang mingde dannyyeo ||
|| xuyunling alvinology mrbrown esther ||
|| drbondar psychdigest ||
|| kfdrawing iwrotethisforyou thingsweforget ||

After all, what is in the past but what we choose to remember? They can choose not to hide it, to take what's broken, to feel the pain and know that it will heal. They know where happiness lies, not in a cave or a country, but in love and the freedom to give and take what has been there all along.
-- The Bonesetter's Daughter

she watches on

Others desire to experience the blessedness of giving, but we often frustrate them by refusing their help.


“你有心事吗?”
“或许有一天,我会告诉你吧。”
--《不能说的·秘密》

she holds on

 Memories were also a way of looking in a mirror, but it was a jagged mirror of broken glass, one that cast imperfect reflections. Like shards, these memories drew blood.

February 2003 March 2003 April 2003 May 2003 June 2003 July 2003 September 2003 October 2003 November 2003 December 2003 January 2004 February 2004 March 2004 April 2004 May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 January 2012 February 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 August 2012 October 2012 November 2012 December 2012 January 2013 February 2013 March 2013 April 2013 May 2013 June 2013 July 2013 August 2013 September 2013 October 2013 November 2013 December 2013 January 2014 February 2014 March 2014 April 2014 May 2014 June 2014 July 2014 August 2014 September 2014 October 2014 November 2014 December 2014 January 2015 February 2015 March 2015 April 2015 May 2015 July 2015 September 2015 October 2015 November 2015 December 2015 January 2016 February 2016 March 2016 April 2016 May 2016 June 2016 August 2016 September 2016 October 2016 November 2016 December 2016 January 2017 February 2017 April 2017 May 2017 August 2017 September 2017 October 2017 November 2017 December 2017 January 2018 February 2018 April 2018 June 2018 July 2018 September 2018 October 2018 November 2018 December 2018 February 2019 April 2019 June 2019 August 2019 October 2019 December 2019 January 2020 February 2020 March 2020 April 2020 May 2020 July 2020 November 2020 February 2021 April 2021 July 2021 September 2021 November 2021 March 2022

she never gets

永远不会交的功课 || 永远不会实现的愿望

|| you ||

Responsibility means not blaming anyone or anything for your situation, including yourself... Whatever relationships you have attracted in your life at this moment are precisely the ones you need in your life at this moment. There is a hidden meaning behind all events, and this hidden meaning is serving your own evolution.
-- Deepak Chopra

she thanks

Designer : Wei Jun
Brushes : Deviantart - Spy Glass

I don't know, I don't know. Sometimes I feel like I'm a pair of eyes and ears, and I'm just trying to stay safe and make sense of what's happening. I know what to avoid, what to worry about.I'm like those kids who live with gunfire going off around them. I don't want pain. I don't want to die. I don't want to see other people around me die. But I don't have anything left inside me to figure out where I fit in or what I want. If I want anything, it's to know what's possible to want.
-- The Bonesetter's Daughter

Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Hebrews 11:1

Friday, January 18, 2008
withers away @ 7:23 pm

could have been there tonight. now. ahhhhh
im sad. boo.

It's something Mystical

Sunday, January 13, 2008
withers away @ 11:40 pm

u could say i had a memorable 21st birthday.. at least i got to celebrate it with complete groups of ppl, ppl who really matter to me.
zoo was just randomness and slacking, which is really pretty rare. we were all (note: everyone was there!) at mel's house, talking about almost anything that came to our minds, with potluck lunch.. after that came the after-lunch syndrome, and many went drifting off to sleep, while the remaining watched.. an indian show. yes.‌ indian show. it was funny! went for dinner after that, and we were all too full for any dessert.
this is abt the most complete picture we took.

ok this has bibi in it.

my present! (pls ignore the background :D)

gang was the difficult one i know. thx girl for the effort:D the guys were working so it was pretty difficult to get everyone tgt, but we did! it was real fun with dinner and real cheap singing at chinatown, but i still think the present's overpriced. really. felt a little bad after that coz it was so late and yang had to send everyone home, plus i missed the exit of the expressway to my own house!! shows how much i've been driving home huh. everyone had to wake up early the next day except for me. hee. and so i was fumbling with my new toy the next day. and the next. and the next.
everyone!

my new toy...
and how i fumbled with it. haha
pw grp was.. simply enjoyable. we didnt do much really, but somehow we always find smth to do, and stuff to say. had buffet, which was fun in itself already with zhong ji mi ma at the end, and then shopping! shoots lah. we then played taboo and talked.. took photos!! we really really dun take many photos. but we took quite alot today.
us, after many many times of trying.

new wallet! its pink!

过去的一年是起伏不定的。心情大好大坏,跟连续剧没什么分别。人生如戏,这句话是真的。谁是谁生命中的男主角,谁又是谁的女主角,只有到大结局那天才懂。身为演员的我们,往往不知道编剧的想法。一下子可能以为是主角,转个身变成了配角也不知发生了什么事,甚至成了加利菲也无可奈何。编剧的决定是绝对的,其他人唯一可以做的就是诚心盼望。
所谓世事无绝对,当你以为是一个开始,其实是一个结束。当你以为结束,却有可能是另一个开始。有人说过,人生像一盒巧克力,因为你永远不知道下一颗的滋味。纵使岁月不饶人,没办法的还是得被动地过下去。越来越看得到一切美好后面的负担。但是,只要拥有过,可能一切,就不会沦为枉然吧。多年前,友人说过一句话:命里有时终须有,命里无时莫强求。而命里有什么,无什么,只有到尽头才会知道。周遭的种种,让人觉得应该活在当下。了解是一回事,但说到实践,谈何容易。
所谓的人生,也不过如此。
老了,写的东西也变老了。成熟了,而成熟也是得付出代价的。成年了,是值得期盼,还是值得叹息的呢?都说了,面对这大世界,人是被动的动物,那也就只有这样的过咯。
i wish someone would just tell me. just tell me.

It's something Mystical

Thursday, January 10, 2008
withers away @ 2:14 am

四个字:受宠若惊。
很感激,真的很感激。谢谢。

It's something Mystical

Saturday, January 05, 2008
withers away @ 10:09 pm

every sem nv fails to bring surprises huh. happy 2008 to us all ppl.

It's something Mystical